Friday, May 27, 2011

Friday Scattered Thoughts

We are being tested and being pressed from ALL sides and we know that the character of our Lord in us will never fail us. we have a responsibility though, that to fully trust in the Lord through faith means we have to pressed through all this pain, all this doubts, all this loneliness, and all this darkness in our hearts. BUT we cannot do it by merely fulfilling the LAW set before us, the law of life that is so full of pretentions and deceptions. This law around me saying, I can call on Jesus, and hide in His hands along the pains of this struggles, where in fact we are hiding from people, we are hiding from the world. we dont want them to know us, we dont want exposure. we will say then that we trust God, but them peoples? no i dont trust anyone of them. and oh i know of this dear friend i love, i know that friend of mine will understand, and so i will risk pouring out this clouds of burden to that friend of mine. but them poeples? i dont think they will understand me, they will only judge me, condemn me. i will face this on my own, i know God will hear me when i pray to Him because i am in pain and i know he sees my heart.


yeah right. God sees our heart. BUT DO WE? do we really see what God is showing us that the contents of our hearts? are we even willing to look at our hearts? or maybe we are only willing to feel our hearts. yeah, feeling is deceiving.


 We cannot do it on our own self, relying the works of our hands. our responsibility is to pursue God and the only way is THROUGH JESUS CHRIST. do you really know that name? well honestly, i know the name, but the big question in my life everyday is that, DO I REALLY KNOW THE CHARACTER OF JESUS CHRIST, more than knowing the name?


i honestly need other people to encourage me, to pray for me,  and if Jesus needs prayer from His disciples, how much more do i need it for my life too? how much more do i need to pray if all Jesus do is pray for me?


My heart is exploding inside of me... JESUS HOLD ME PLEASE!!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

The Life I Planned (by Beth Moore)

The Life I Planned
by Beth Moore


Has someone seen the life I planned?
It seems it's been misplaced
I've looked in every corner
It's lost without a trace
I've found one I don't recognize
Things missing that were dear
Promises I'd hope to keep
And dreams I'd dreamed aren't here
Faces I had planned to see
Hands I planned to hold
Now absent in the pictures
Not the way I told
Has someone seen the life I planned?
Did it get thrown away?
God took my hand from searching
Then I heard him say,

"Child, your ears have never heard
Your eyes have never seen
Eternal plans I have for you
Are more than you could dream.
"You long to walk by sight
But I'm teaching eyes to see.
I know what I am doing
'Til then, you must believe."
He's done so much, I felt ashamed
To know He heard my moans
To think I'd trade in all He's done
For plans made on my own.
I wept over His faithfulness
And how He'd proved Himself
How He'd gone beyond my dreams
And said to Him myself,

"No, my ears have never heard
My eyes have never seen
Eternal plans you have for me
Are more than I could dream.
"Yes, I long to walk by sight
But You're teaching eyes to see
You know what You are doing
'Til then, I must believe."
I felt His great compassion
Mercy unrestrained
He let me mourn my losses
And showed me to my gains.
I offered Him my future
And released to Him my past
I traded in my dreams
For a plan He said would last.
I get no glimpse ahead
No certainties at all
Except the presence of the One
Who will not let me fall.
Are you also searching
For a life you planned yourself?
Have you looked in every corner?
Have you checked on every shelf?

Child, your ears have never heard
Your eyes have never seen
Eternal plans He has for you
Are more than you could dream.
Perhaps you long to walk by faith
But He's teaching eyes to see
He knows what He is doing
Child, step out and believe.