Scattered Thoughts: DRIFT AWAY LIKE FEATHERS

My planet is what I called the “ATTIC”

There lie all the wonderful things about me…

My books, my radio, my guitar…

My big soft pillow and an almost cloud-like blanket…

The almost perfect painting of a view on my window

where I can take a glance over the green fields

and the hills and the mountain side every morning.

It’s such a nice feeling to wake up having those things around me.

BUT why do I feel so insatiable?

I long for the things that are far from my own reality

My mom would think I’m getting crazy…

She would asked, “why in the world would I want to boxed myself in that small hole?”

They don’t realize that in that small hole lies my universe.

It had a lot of secret though!

It keeps my deepest secrets..

It knows all the things I hide

It holds all the pains in me

When I bleed with self inflicted pain

When I cried out of desperation

When I compose my own song!

I’m at the peak of my temperament

Melancholic BUT never apathetic!

Scattered Thoughts: just is

Frightened as I am in this quaking days

Waking my soul deep inside the hardness of my bones

My heart still pumps but the beating stops

What happened to my heavenly places?

What happened to my ground?

What have I failed to understand?

I used to hear the sound of flowing waters

Until the flood of angry voices grew hard and draw so close to me,

That even their whisper is a scream!

I used to let the rain washed over me, cleaning the dirt in me

But the lands are dry and the rain,

with which I have waited to pour out for so long…

never thought of dropping by.

Rhema: 2 Corinthians 6:3-13 (Paul’s Hardships)

Like Paul, I’ll try to understand what it means to not put a stumbling block in anyone’s path. Paul commends himself as “servant of God”. I want that for myself.

 I cannot commend myself yet but in great endurance, in my troubles, hardships and distresses I will praise God.

In beatings, in hardwork, in sleepless nights and hunger I will thank my God.

In imprisonment in my own skin, in the riots of my will and Your will, and in the wars that I end up defeated I will stand for You Lord.

Paul’s hardships will be my hardships too.

I will not give up!

The enemy can crush me and torn me and cut my ribs and bruised me but I will fight.

I have to be prepared with what the enemy will do and is doing with my family, with my life, with my people.

Satan will make it worst to the bones but I’m gonna STAND and not even satan can stand my way because I have Jesus.

Scattered Thoughts: Foolishness

Foolishness is something we-most people are afraid to be labeled of. Sometimes it is really the hardest part with surrender, trusting that God is at work on our favor. 

But there is nothing more fulfilling than to know that God is on our side and that His presence is with us rather than to keep doing things we thought to believe we are on God’s side. 

And yes I agree with what Keri Wyatt Kent said in one of her blogs, when she said that God’s wisdom is more than just theoretical knowledge, because Paul said further in 1 Corinthians that “Knowledge puffs up, but Love builds up” (1 Corinthians 8:1b NIV). 

Sometimes other people are just too technical with the word of God that they end up pouring personal judgment on others. They just don’t realize that “For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.” (1 Corinthians 1:25). 

Rhema: James 1

I realized, though not fully yet, that “pressures”, “challenges” and “testing’s in life” happens to us with the intention of bringing our FAITH into exposure. Makikita natin saan nga ba or kanino nga ba tayo NANANAMPALATAYA.

FAITH, FAITH, FAITH.

James 1:3 (The Message) – The testing of our faith will produce in us the STRENGTH TO CONTINUE.

Here when it said “strength to continue”, it speaks of perseverance. The GOAL of “challenges” in our life is to make us ALL WE SHOULD BE. Ibig sabihin LALABAS ang TRUE IDENTITY natin, what is real about us.

James 1:12 – Blessed is the man who keeps on going when times are hard.

Now let us break it down.

A. Blessed – the rest of the verse says, when you are blessed, you will receive a crown. And the CROWN we gain is LIFE. and it is promised to those who LOVE God. The question is, do we love God the way He commanded us in Matthew 22:37-38, to love Him “WITH ALL” we have and “WITH ALL” we are?

*This truth will only hurt those in pride, those who are half-hearted, and those who believed they have loved God but is unwilling to give all. And sadly, I’m not an exemption to this vulnerability.

B. Keeps on going – this simply means persevering, having the strength to continue, having the determination to push through no matter what. And it also speaks of those who are “loyally in-Love with God”.

C. When times are hard – TIMES ARE HARD! what could be a better explanation of this than to give my own example! Here is when I can say times are hard in my life:

*no money

*no funds or resources

*no projects to work on

*people around me are crazy (at least crazy in a way dysfunctional, things are out of order, out of place)

*sick brother, sick parents, sick me. that no matter how many prescriptions we take, we are not getting better, and when I pray, I started to ask what could I have been doing wrong all this time? So I took it all on me.

*a family in NEED and IN DEMAND of me. (you have an idea of when you are the only person who works to provide for the whole family)

*times when there are no other means to make ends meet.

*sleepless nights, headaches, and pressure out of all this and at the surface you can still see a smiling me. that’s not pretense, but trying to be strong inspite of…

*and the list can go on as long as it takes but you get the whole picture, right?

James 1:16-18(The Message) – Don’t let anyone fool you. God chose to give us NEW BIRTH through the message of TRUTH. He wanted us to be the FIRST and BEST of everything He created.

*it says “DON’T GET THROWN OFF COURSE”. Keep track with God. Is our heart still right with God?

*to KNOW the heart of God is to know this truth.

James 1:19

PAY ATTENTION: Be quick to listen. Listen. Listen. Listen. It is my JOB DESCRIPTION today to listen and listen well. To hear and not much to speak. To slowly chew out every word that comes out of my mouth, to always listen first.

James 1:21

Get rid of everything DIRTY and SINFUL. Don’t be proud to accept the Word that is planted in you. In simple humility, LET.

*LET – mean let’s allow God, submit to God, surrender to God, permit God, and be willing to listen and follow God.

If you don’t know what you are doing, pray to the Father. ASK BOLDLY, believingly, without SECOND THOUGHTS. Never, ever “WORRY YOU PRAYERS”.

Don’t ever count on what your hands are producing. Our efforts and own methods are only short-lived. Panandalian lng yan. Our own ways will NEVER give us satisfaction and will never attain what we intend to goal.

Now, what do I hear from God today? Don’t be just hearer. ACT on what you hear or else you might just well be good as deaf.

This is what the voice of God tells me personally today: Guard your heart and your people from the corruption and pollution of the Godless world.

Right now, my life is completely in a great challenge of FAITH. My prayer is that God will bring out in me an extraordinary FAITH, something i cannot think or imagine. I ask God to amaze me. My life, my future, my career, my family... all of me is in God's hands.
There's so many "EVEN-though's" in my life today that STILL i want Jesus above everything and STILL I know fully that God is my confidence. 


Live well. Live wisely. Live humbly. Live IN CHRIST.