Psalm 16

Meditating, defining, reflecting Psalm 16 in my heart. 

Psalm 16

¹ Keep me safe, O God,

for in you I take refuge.

² I said to the Lord, “You are my Lord;

apart from you I have no good thing.”

³ As for the saints who are in the land,

they are the glorious ones in whom is all my delight.^b

⁴ The sorrows of those will increase

who run after other gods.

I will not pour out their libations of blood

or take up their names on my lips.

⁵ Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;

you have made my lot secure.

⁶ The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;

surely I have a delightful inheritance.

⁷ I will praise the Lord, who counsels me;

even at night my heart instructs me.

⁸ I have set the Lord always before me.

Because he is at my right hand,

I will not be shaken.

⁹ Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;

my body also will rest secure,

¹⁰ because you will not abandon me to the grave,^c

nor will you let your Holy One^d see decay.

¹¹ You have made^e known to me the path of life;

you will fill me with joy in your presence,

with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Psalm 16:8 -  I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. 

                   *Lord I pray that you search my heart. Is my heart still running after You? Are you still my priority? Am I really not shaken when I say to You that I'm not letting go? Pierce my heart Lord with Your love, and mercy. I am unworthy to claim verse 5 and 6. 

Its been a long time since I last pour out on my journal. I have no good thoughts to bring to You today. All I know is that I need Your grace desperately. My life and my commitment to You has been INCONSISTENT. I have been unfaithful even until this morning. I prayed that all my motives and intentions in WHY I DO THINGS in the first place, be align to what I wanted to believe I desire to live -- a Life of total surrender to You and purposely loving You and loving the people You have placed around me. But its not always that way. I was living in my addiction to the virtual world, like its the only thing real to me. It was like an addiction next to coffee. I am guilty. I wanted to come out of this life I have formed in me. I haven't been living the real life. I messed up the real life and now all I am is NOTHING before You. I could not bring up anything in me that is pleasing to You God.

I want to fight. Lord Help me. I am weak on my own. I want the strong man in me to DIE so that everything else that I am DEPENDS on You. 

Lord, You are my Lord, and my Savior; apart from You, there is no good thing in me.